VOL II

I have had this draft started since July 15, 2026, but was unable to begin telling this story. I won’t get into details, I will let the music do the storytelling. I would much rather talk about me. 

The last two years have been the most trying of times both professionally and personally, and that is because, the two were happening simultaneously. If you read my previous blogs, there were hints of it.

Here I was trying my best to achieve my vision as an artist, develop musically, and ultimately gave it my all – no doubt. I worked very hard to make it to the finish line of my last album. The year of the album consisted of me exhausting myself. Working a full time job, building my brand, scripting my videos, editing them, travelling to Cuba multiple times, all the while I remained present for the people around me. Some of those people are bad people – simply put – bloodsuckers. 

I was sleeping about 3-4 hours a day, non-stop. I had a rat, or a few rats, in my corner playing a game they thought they would win. I always wanted to believe the best in them, the best of who they claimed to be. 

It took many tests, many discussions, many chances and many betrayals to finally find myself standing alone. This is the part I want to focus on in this first blog of what is about to come. 

When I got on that stage last October 4, 2025, I was standing alone, inside my soul was aching, my mind spiralling, and my heart was broken. 

I needed to heal, but the healing process was one that took me longer than expected. I kept falling back & thus the healing kept taking longer. 

I eventually fell. A moment I will never forget for the rest of my life – because this became the darkest moment that would transform me forever. 

You really learn a lot about people in your hardest moments. Who is around? Who actually cares enough to call or show up? Who has an alterior motive in trying to help you?  Who caused you to fall purposely?…

I truly feared that I would never get over it because it was so manipulative and toxic – my brain kept trying to understand how people can be so cruel without a second thought. Until one day – I realized – because they can. 

In the last year, I have done so much work on myself, and failed in my attempts to heal but overall, I was progressing every day. Progressing meant putting myself first. Choosing to say no. Defending myself without a worry about what people would say. Standing tall with my convictions and most importantly, speaking my truth. 

We live in a world where morality has gone out the window. Rules don’t apply. It’s dog eat dog. I had to change once and for all. 

So I closed the door on anyone who was never a friend, anyone who stopped checking in, anyone who only came around when they needed something. I thanked those who stood by me and I set off to create a world of peace and tranquility. 

I probably listened to hundreds of hours of podcasts, joined a few healthy activities, and stuck to my family. It was my turn to be nurtured, to be taken care of, to remember who I was before this nightmare.